Well, my room is still in chaos, but I went out and bought the behemoth of all storage containers today so I can continue phase one: cleaning out my closet (shudder). It's such a mess, but I'm clearing the whole thing out, something that hasn't been done in years! I'm bored and sick of being alone in the house all day. Actually I should probably try to find a job. I'll get around to it soon.

I went to the band concert tonight at my high school. It was so weird to be back, and all I could think was "thank God I'm out of high school!". It wasn't so bad being there and not being a student. It was kind of empowering, like I conquered some huge, dominating force in my life and I will never suffer under it's looming presence ever again. I'm infinitely glad high school is over, I can't say that enough. Anyway, the concert was so good and it was great to see everyone again. I'm not gonna lie, I was happy to see that the first chair flute player didn't have any solos, since I had five last year. I was so competitive and had to make sure it was generally known that I was the best. After graduation, I realized how silly this was and am glad it's over. I think I was happiest to see Rachel again. She was my best band friend and my link to everyone else. And of course Kelli, even though she's only a junior. But I don't think age matters, it's more just who you get along with the best. It was just kind of weird being there because they've been through another year of high school without me. I've missed out on so much and don't know if it will be weird if I hang out with them this summer because I've been through college and they haven't started yet. I know Rachel will always call me, but I don't think it'll be the same anymore. We don't have the whole band thing in common anymore and it's kind of like they think I've grown and moved on. I'm sure it'll be ok, it'll just be strange at their graduation. I guess I should've made more friends in my own grade, but all most of them did was get drunk and high all the time, and I just wasn't into that. Summer is boring, but it's only been a week, so I shouldn't judge yet.

The VIP final concert is Thursday. I think I'll call Bethany and Lisa and see if they want to go. I wonder if Lisa and Adam are still dating even though they go to college in different states. I hope so. They were so cute and everyone was so jealous of them. That's one of my goals this summer, to call Lisa. We were both unsocial workaholics in high school and it would be nice to actually do something fun together for once. Oh well, I didn't like show choir as much as band anyway. I talked to some boy from VIPs tonight and I feel so bad because I can't remember his name. He was only a freshman last year, but he remembered me. I'm usually so good with names, but I really can't remember! Anyway, he said they weren't very good this year and didn't win any first places. Haha, at least we got to win a bunch last year! I really need to get out more, or else this summer will be torture. Oh well, being by myself gives me plenty of opportunities to blast music and dance really stupid around the house! Hehe, I'm such a nerd. Uh-oh, I've reverted to downloading random songs I've never heard before for fun. I definitely need to get out.