I feel like I'm slowly dying. My throat hurts so badly that I can hardly talk, and any sound that comes out is very painful to produce. I hardly have the energy to stand up, and walking up one flight of stairs to my room puts me out of breath. Now I have a pounding headache and about 50 pages of reading to do before I can go to bed. I've been taking Advil Cold and Sinus every 4 hours, but I don't know if it's helping or not. The funny thing is, this morning/afternoon it wasn't so bad and I felt like I was getting better. Now I just want to collapse somewhere. Blah. If I die, please come to my funeral.

On the bright side, Nina and I went to Target today to buy Christmas decorations. Our room is so neat and Christmasy now. We have Christmas ornaments hanging from the ceiling on gold ribbon, candy canes in a bowl, a small Christmas tree on the windowsill, garland around the door and light, and Christmas lights and Christmas window cling-ons on my window that faces the courtyard so everyone can see. Our room is amazing. We win the prize for best decorations. Nobody else even comes close. :) Yay, I'm so excited about Christmas! If I can just survive the next three weeks...

I've been spending lots of time exploring the different types of music available on iTunes. There's one girl who has almost 100 songs by different a capella groups from colleges all over the country, and I fell in love with one of the songs. There's an all male a capella group from MIT that sings the Goo Goo Dolls song "Black Balloon", and it sounds amazing. I just want the boy who sings it to come sing to me forever, and I would be happy. *Sigh* I would melt and get all tingly and never leave the room. God, that's so stereotypically girly of me. :) Oh well. I listened to it five or six times in a row last night. I'm not obsessed.

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I'm so glad that I only have one more day before break. I can't wait to go home. I haven't been back since August and I haven't seen my parents since the very beginning of October. I miss them, and I miss my house and my bed and my room and my friends, although I probably won't see them. It's a good thing I don't have any tests or papers this week, because they would not be done well. This whole week I haven't done anything. I'm just sitting around waiting for the week to be over. I already have a list of things I want to do over the break. I can't wait! Three more classes...

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For some reason, I have this insatiable desire to go shopping. I'm not sure why because I've never been obsessed with it. I think it's because I haven't really been since August or maybe the first week of September. I really want to buy a new pair of shoes and a new blazer or non-turtle neck sweater. It's calling me. Oooooooo "Buy me!" "Buy me!" I'm being summoned by the invisible spirits of commercialism. I love it.

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I've noticed that I just don't care anymore. I used to get dressed up at least a few days a week, but during the past month or two, I just haven't cared anymore. I've recently gotten into the habit of getting up 10 minutes before I have to be somewhere, brushing my teeth, washing my face, and throwing on a pair of baggy jeans and a sweatshirt. Sometimes I'll dress like that all week. It's funny because in high school, I wouldn't walk out the door without make-up on and a nice shirt, and I never ever wore my glasses. Now my glasses are used at least once a week and I go without make-up most days. In some ways it's nice to not care and not feel like I have to impress any person/people, but other times it makes you feel really gross and lazy. Should I put more into my appearance, or does it really not matter? I don't know. I don't think it's that I don't want to look nice, I think it's just that I don't have time. I just can't make myself get out of bed early enough to pick out a nice outfit and put make-up on. So maybe I'm just lazy. Eh, whatever. Maybe I'll look nice for tomorrow. Thank God I don't have an 8:30 next semester. Maybe that will help. Or I could just go shopping over Thanksgiving and buy a bunch of really cute clothes that would entice me to wear them! That sounds good. :) Ah, the things that pervade my thoughts.

Ah, Thanksgiving break...24 hours from now I will be on my way home. :)

Songs: Incubus "Talk Shows on Mute", 311 "Champagne (Remix)", and of course the Massachusetts Institute of Technology Logarhythms (that's really what they're called, lol) "Black Balloon"

Exciting News

Haha, ok, I know this won't be exciting news to anyone besides me, but here it is: Vanessa Carlton has a new album out! It just came out last Tuesday, but I only found out about it yesterday. I found it by downloading this song by Vanessa Carlton that I'd never heard before. I was surprised, so I did some research and found out that it is from her new CD. The first single is called "White Houses", and it's a very nice song. I really like it, but I can't pinpoint exactly why. I love love love her first album Be Not Nobody. It was one of those that was on repeat forever and ever in my CD player in high school. It's been awhile since that album and it's about time she made a new one. Anyway, I'm very excited, and I must buy this CD immediately! Yay!

I'm so glad it's Friday! I'm so exhausted. I had the craziest week ever full of so many papers and tests and very little sleep. It started out Sunday, where I got no sleep whatsoever. I had a very busy Sunday, and didn't get to start on homework until late. I had two short papers and a test on Monday, plus 200 pages of reading I had to do to write the short papers. Needless to say I didn't get any sleep that night. I wasn't even able to go back to my room before my 8:30 class. It wasn't fun, but I made it through with very little complaining. Everything was okay until today when I had a long paper due. I didn't start it until very late last night and I had trouble picking a good topic and staying with it. I was up very late and got very little accomplished. The good news is that my 8:30 was cancelled, so I slept until 9:00, when I got up to type more of my paper. My paper was due by 5:00 today, so I waited until daytime today to write more than half of it. I had 3 classes today with an hour in between each of them, so in between each class, I ran to the computer lab and frantically typed for an hour. I finally finished my 3rd revision at 4:45 and decided to run and turn it in just before the deadline. I walked to my professor's office only to discover that the main door leading into the group of offices was locked, so I couldn't even put it in her mailbox. I was mildly surprised but not really upset by it. I started to walk outside and ran into another girl from my class also going to turn her paper in. We walked back upstairs, and luckily we ran into a janitor who unlocked the door so we could put our papers in her mailbox. So that's over and I'm very, very glad.

I met with my advisor today to schedule classes for next semester. If I get all the classes I want, I should have a pretty good schedule, however, I'm not counting on it. Last year I only got 1 out of 4 classes I requested, so I'm not getting my hopes up. I am excited to see what I'll end up taking next semester though.

I can't express how happy I am that it is Friday. I'm pretty hungry though because I haven't had anything to eat all day on account of my frantic paper writing. Most of my friends left to get coffee (which I desperately need right now) while I was still in class, and my roommate left to go shopping I don't know when. I better find someone to eat dinner with because I'm starving. Oops, digression. Anyway, I can't wait to be able to sleep late tomorrow. Tonight, all I really want is to lie on the futon under my cozy pink fleece blanket and watch a movie. That would be heavenly. Except I'd probably fall asleep. Haha, oh well.

Despite all the work and the lack of sleep, this was a really great week. Next week I don't have any work other than the normal reading, so I'm counting on that being a great week too.

Just Kidding!!!

Ok, I lied. I'm not quitting. I'm suffering from blog withdrawal. Not really. Just for the record, that whole goodbye thing was overly dramatic on purpose. I was bored. Really bored. I was really not sad, and this page is really not symbolic of anything. I was just really really bored. And I don't quit. I just don't know what I'm going to write about.

Oh! Everyone should most definitely download iTunes. Go to http://www.apple.com/itunes/
Do it now. Whoever you are, wherever you are, download it. It's amazing. I like it so so so much more than the Windows Media Player that I always used before. I'm wasted hours transferring all my music and am working on putting together a shared folder because.........YOU CAN SHARE MUSIC WITH PEOPLE IN YOUR DORM!!!!!!! There are some people who live on my floor that have some really cool music and all you have to do is click on a song to listen to it. Even better, there is an illegal program called mytunes that lets you download songs from these people. Amazing. I love it so much, I'm most definitely hooked. Try it, you'll love it.

Ok, it's 27 degrees outside and that is way too cold for me right now. I'm not ready to break out the pea coat and the turtlenecks just yet. It's too warm during the day and too cold at night. Complain complain complain. Blah. Haha.

I love randomness. I think it's one of the best things about life. Like the way I can be driving down the road and see a sign that says landfill pointing to a long narrow side path and it will make me crack up. No one else thinks this is funny, but I'll laugh about it forever because it's so random. I love my tendency to spontaneously burst into fits of song and dance, even in the middle of Cedar Point. I love when people interject completely off-topic comments in the middle of a lull in conversation. I love it even more when I do it. I love taking pictures of random signs that make me laugh. I love the random squirrel that has strange spasmodic fits after climbing down a tree. Randomness is amazing. It's those little silly, crazy, fun, unexpected things that really count. And if you can't tell, I'm feeling pretty random right now too.

So in honor of my new obsession with iTunes along with the grand re-starting of my blog, even though it was really only finished for like a week, I think I should start a song. So whatever random song that happens to be playing when I write this will be my song. Because I have all my music in one folder with it playing on (take a guess) random mode, it could be anything. So today there is a tie because it changed right in the middle of me typing this. The lucky winners are: Goo Goo Dolls "Sympathy" and The Calling "Nothing's Changed". Yay. Completely random songs with no significance whatsoever. I heart random stuff.